On grey days, when the world is dull and I just want to crawl into bed and feel cozy, when I want to hide from the pressures of the day and to ignore my 'to do' list for a little while, I love to cuddle myself inside my bedsheets and stare out the window. It makes me feel at peace, regardless of whatever turmoil I may be experiencing.
Personally, to gaze out of my window is a particular blessing; my view looks out onto Lake Ontario.
Isn't there something so soothing about gazing at the movement of a body of water? It's never boring! And even if I were to sit for hours - which I never do - I'd feel like I was accomplishing something because even if I'm not moving, the water is. It seems as though action is being carried out, even though it may only be the illusion caused by the ebb and flow of water.
Actually there is an achievement that comes with sitting, looking, pondering; the achievement is embodied in the feeling of peace, calm, quiet that brings rejuvenation. Rest without sleep is beautiful, although perhaps it could be more highly profiled as a healthy habit to practice in our busy lives.
And who is to say I'm meant to achieve anything anyway?
Oops! Again, I've struck on my crisis point: that thought that my life is turning a page and I've not been able to accomplish enough in the First Act - or Three - and now time is marching on.
I believe there was someone - centuries ago - who had the ambition to read every book in print. I think he did it! As an over-achiever, I seem to want to do the same sort of thing... only my goal is about as impossible as it would be today to read every book in print.
And I'm not even sure what my goal is... only I know that I haven't achieved it.
Today I began to imagine what I would like to achieve. I've been imagining, envisioning. I haven't done that for a while. Does that make me more aware of my failure, or give me greater hope for the future? I'm not sure... but it's something I'll be thinking about. It has made me feel lighter. And if you have any insights, I wonder if you'd be willing to share with me?
Until next Thursday....
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