The fact is, rest has been hard for me. It's unsettling, because I'm not used to it.
But I'm growing used to peace. I'm discovering the pleasure of gazing out a window without a particular purpose, or going for a walk just to clear my head. Refreshed by the pause, I can tackle the next item on the 'to do' list more effectively and enjoy the process.
I've discovered I don't always have to attend to my list. It is ever-growing anyway, and I'll never able to accomplish everything; so instead, I've opted to enjoy doing what I can accomplish within a given time frame, and have recognized most of the must do's that get pushed aside aren't critical to anyone except me anyway. Leaving them undone hasn't made the outcome a whole lot different to my life, nor to anyone else's.
I've come to realize that time is on my side. Those things that need doing will rise to the surface again. I've had time to do that job when it really needed to be done - and often not before.
I don't actually run out of time. Admittedly, as I've tried to get ahead of myself it hasn't actually worked. Instead, as I let each day's tasks be sufficient, allowing tomorrow's tasks to wait until tomorrow, each day seems to flow into the next without anxiety.
|Rising of a New Day by Sarah Tun|