Welcome to A Life Examined

What is the examined life? A life worth living! As I look at the road ahead, I take all the baggage from the past and use it as experience - the pain and the passion, the sorrow and the joy - allowing it to carve wisdom into my mind and hope into my spirit.
There is no experience that can't be useful to me at some point in my life. There is no lesson learned that cannot make a contribution to the future.
A tiny drop of water is a part of the ocean. A tiny speck in the night sky is a ginormous star in the distance. It all depends on perspective.
So, this examined life is to offer reflections in the hope of discussing things which are of value to myself and to others.
Love, Sarah






Showing posts with label faithful love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label faithful love. Show all posts

Thursday, 5 September 2013

My "Perfect" Life: part 14

Summers with Granny

I never in my life called her 'Granny' but I know a lot of others use that term. Nana is another name some folks use. I called my mother's mother Grandma and she was the only Grandma I had.

When God made my grandma, He broke the mold. And isn't that what is intended? Grandparents are a gift, and like any good gift, I cherished her for as long as she lived.

When I was six I started going to Grandma's for the summer holidays. I believe my mother's strategy was to ensure we (my sister and I) got to know my grandmother. It was a good strategy. I've said in earlier posts she was my best friend and my closest family member; indeed she was the one person who I felt accepted me for who I was. I felt her love.

Grandma lived in a small Southwestern Ontario town, in a little bungalow. I remember her big four poster bed, which she let me sleep in very occasionally. And I remember her pink walls... I think as a grown-up I adopted her like for the colour. I liked her laugh and the way she made anybody welcome in her home. And I liked her name. I told her one day, if I had a little girl, I'd name her Sarah.... So, when I decided to change my name years later, I took hers. I think she'd approve.

Summers were humid... really sticky and unpleasant in Southwestern Ontario. I expect nothing's changed in that regard, though I don't know anyone who lives in that town now, as all of my family has moved away or has died. But the humidity never bothered me when I was young. I just remember endless days playing outside with neighbours, or inside with Barbies and the girl next door.

I remember we took over my grandmother's family room, except on weekday mid-afternoons, when she'd watch her 'stories' -- soap operas that is. There were soap commercials squeezed between cheezy melodramas that I ignored as a child and would learn to schedule my university classes around in Second year university. Oh, I inherited some qualities of Grandma I guess.

The best part of summer was the easy days and feeling of warmth and love. Though some of that was marred by my sister and I arguing. The worst I recall was the time that I hit her across her head with an old fashioned doll - the kind with the rock-hard head. My sister said I'd hit her in the temple and I could have killed her. My response was, "What's a temple?" I don't remember what my grandmother did then, I only know my sister lived on, though probably somewhat bruised temporarily.

Summers were not perfect, but I don't recall much that wasn't. If I could bottle up summers with Grandma and sell them, they'd make a wonderful gift.

If you've got a special relationship with a family member, like I had with my gran, consider yourself truly blessed. I do.

Best to you, until next Thursday.
The one pic I have of my Grandmother






Thursday, 14 February 2013

Faithful Heart: In What Do We Put Our Faith So Love Can Grow?

Sarah Tun "Two Hearts"


How do you define a faithful heart?

It is Valentine's Day! Do you believe in love? Romance? Do you put your faith in romantic love?

Whatever we believe in and hope for, that is the place where we put our effort and our trust. For example, I believe hard work earns its own reward; so, I work hard believing it will yield me benefit. I also believe in loyalty, so I'm loyal to others, believing others in turn will be loyal to me.

I think that whatever we believe dictates, in significant measure, our attitudes and our actions.

So, when we put our trust in romance or marriage, do we not put our effort toward engaging in romantic love? We do this because we believe it will bring us something we desire, like happiness and a sense of being loved. But is this the same as loving another person?

When it comes to matters of the heart, certainly we can't have a relationship with a concept. We must have a person to love in order for there to be love, right? But I believe we are able to put our hopes into an idea - or an ideal - so that we become attracted to love while believing we are attracted to another person. For example, we can desire love in our lives so much that we 'fall in love' with the idea of romance until that desire for romantic love  propels us into a romantic relationship. I think loving the 'idea' of love or romance is natural, but I also believe we can confuse this desire for love with love for another person. If we do that, it can create all sorts of problems.

Love, romance or marriage can't happen in a vacuum. Love takes two people - a relationship - in order to bloom. If both people are committed to each other and want the best for each other, love grows. But if the ideal of love is what matters more than the needs and passions of the other person, then when the differences arise between these two people - and they invariably will - there might be very little depth or selflessness to hold the relationship together.

I remember a particular situation when I was a teenager. There was a guy I hadn't taken any notice of who asked me out. I said, "yes". He was attractive and pleasant but we had nothing in common. I see that clearly now and I think I even saw it then. But the potential for 'love' caused me to give a lot of weight to the possibility of dating him a second time. I give him credit because he didn't ask me out again and eventually, my infatuation or curiosity faded and I no longer thought about him. But for a short time, I keenly considered dating him... not because I was keen on him but rather because I was focusing on having an object to love. I wanted love and romance, and he became a target to think about.

Is that why so many girls have crushes on pop singers?!

For love to grow, we need to put our faith in it. But what love is worthy of our faithfulness? I've learned to have faith in the love that is responsive and has an excellent track record: my faith is in my family, my creativity and in my God.

I think without faith we shrivel and without love we despair. Without faith there can be no hope but,

     "Hope deferred makes the heart sick."  (Proverbs 13:12)

So we need to hope in love. But we need to be both discerning in where we place our love and faithful in our giving of it.

In whom have you placed your love? Are you being loved in return? If so, be grateful. And if not, consider: where is your faith? Never mind the concept of religious faith. Start with faith in someone you can trust. It may not be romantic love but it will be secure and lasting. As a tiny grain of mustard seed grows into a tree, a little bit of well-placed faith will grow an awesome result.*

Sarah Tun "Embrace" and Vase
* You can explore more about this at:
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NEXT SCHEDULED BLOG POST: Thursday 28th February TOPIC: Desires of the Heart